Saturday, November 22, 2008

A Troubled Economy!

I sit here anxiously waiting to see what life will be. I'm 35 and only have a short time to think about it. Where will I be? How will my children survive in this poor and beaten down global economy? Will there be food on the table? So many questions and so little time to get them answered. I live my life in confusion trying to get these questions answered.
As a child my father was a Blacksmith, in the 80's like most steal workers my father was laid off. We hit poverty instantly, it was a rough time. My father was a strong man, hard worker and dedicated. He would never miss work! If he could find a job. It was tough on us as children, food pantry's, hand me downs and the feeling of the poor and beaten down. As much as he would tell us money did not matter we knew it was very important. Trying to recover my father pressed on trying to make away in this world and to recover from the loss he faced. I don't think he ever recovered.
Leaving his trade behind he took on other jobs way to many to list but he was always a blacksmith in his eyes and mine. In the 90's Things were good, I began to grow up. I saw so many opportunity's for my father as a blacksmith but he left the hot iron behind always telling me there's no money in it! Maybe not, but the skill was priceless. Over the years I have tried to get him back into it he only refused. Maybe because of his loss in the 80's and the memories and questions he was faced with on a daily basis.
Now I find myself in his situation leaving more questions to be answered. Will I end up like my father? Will I have to leave my trade behind and move on? Does history repeat itself? Will my children end up just like me? These are all viscous questions that torment me on a daily basis. I use to live my life focusing on my skills as a lamp worker. Now I find myself trying to answer these questions. Just when I think I have it figured out another question is brought up! When will they stop? Why so many questions? Will it ever end? They just keep popping up! Will I ever get these questions answered? I guess I'll just have to wait for time to tell!

1 comment:

hi-d said...

you see yourself in dad...the difference is dad's a dreamer and you are a dream maker, master of your own dreams...keep your head high you will prevail...your work has only improved throughout your struggles... remember...you are a dreamer AND a doer, so dream big and you will achieve big things...

 
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